Hmmm

Well it's way late or early in the morning how ever you want to see it.  I haven't been to sleep yet... I'm tired but, I'm trying not to stress to much.  But, that is very hard.  When we went to the Urologist he told my hubby and I that from the images he seen that my hubby does indeed have renal cell cancer....So, he did some blood work and a urine sample.  We are waiting now for a place to call us with an appointment for a biopsy on his right kidney of the mass in it.  The Urologist said that if all these tests come back that it is 100% cancer that he would be referring him to another doctor for surgery.  The Urologist said that he stopped performing surgery since he had a hip replacement it's hard for him to stand in one place.  Sooooo... I am standing firm and believing for a miracle.. That my hubby is not going to have any cancer nor are they going to be able to find the mass they seen before.

Hubby's Urologist Appointment

Well tomorrow is my hubby's urologist appointment.  I'm not going to lie.. I'm a little nervous.  When the doctor said he has a mass in his right kidney.  I was like oh my goodness.  Then the doctor did an MRI, Multiphasic CT,  and told us it was consistent with Renal Cell Cancer.... Then on a report the doctor said that my husband has renal cell cancer.   My heart dropped but at the same time I became furious.  How dare anyone say that he has any type of cancer without any blood work or any biopsy done of the mass... I try to stay strong for my family to lean on me.. But, sometimes it's hard and I break down and just cry... I can't imagine my life without my hubby..Or my family as a whole...   I feel that he doesn't have cancer.  I feel it maybe a tumor but that it's benign.  Regardless of the outcome of the doctor reports I know God will see us through and give us strength to overcome it all.

Fallen Heroes deserve better treatment

Growing up I listened to my grandfather who fought as a Marine in World War II tell stories of the war. I saw the pain and tears on his face as he talked of watching some of his best friends getting killed beside him.

Until the day he passed away he never once forgot anyone who served or died during that time.

Anytime he heard of any soldier dying in battle he would take special time out of every day and mourn. He would say they died fighting for our country. I would like to add this:

When these troops signed up they were treated with honor and respect.

But after being killed in battle, they were thrown away like yesterday's trash ("Cremated remains of troops put in landfill," Reading Eagle, Dec. 9).

There should be a place of honor for all soldiers who die. To the Air Force these troops may not matter. But each of them was someone's family and friend. 

These troops were dishonored and disrespected being treated in such a manner.

I understand families that have closure for a loved one may not want a finger or a toe that may later be found. I understand it would cause them grief and more pain.

But what about the families who didn't get the chance to have that closure?

I think a special burial should be held with all the families for these thrown away troops. Each family should be given a folded flag, and the burial ceremony should be full military honors.

Honor at sign up, dishonor in death.

What a sad and shameful time and country we live in and have become.

Voice

Everyday I see on the news, in the papers, online...everywhere you turn about a child being murdered....It makes me furious that certain children get their cases publicized repeatedly and yet others you hear their stories once or twice and that's it.  What is wrong with the world we live in?  Are we such a selective country that only certain people matter?  My heart breaks for all these poor helpless children.. Some murdered by people who gave them life....Some by strangers... Regardless it's senseless!  We should all stand up and take notice and we should all become a voice for all these children...  We can speak up for everything else,  why not for victims?  To see the impact such a tragedy has on a family is heartbreaking.  But, to see not just the media but everyday people just sit back and watch all these children be swept under the rug and forgotten about is just ridiculous.  Maybe we should start at the basics of things.. I am all for community watch programs... But, we should educate people that community watch is just that.... You watch!  You call the police and let them handle the situation.  You don't go out all guns blazing!  That's stupid.  I also feel that people should be evaluated that they are mentally stable to handle any situation. Whether it be community watch, playground leader, life guard, etc.  I for one don't want my children being supervised by someone who could put them in danger at the flip of a switch.   A friend of my children recently found out that her cousin was beaten then strangled to death by her mother.  On the birthday of the girls father.  The mother and father shared custody and the mother got tired of it and she had recently broken up with a lover.  So, what does she do!  She kills her own child.. Then set the house on fire and then killed herself... Now to me this was very selfish of the mother.  If she didn't want to live.. (no I'm not condoning suicide) that would have been her choice, but to take her anger out on her own child... There's just no words to describe that.  You have these parents in jail that killed their children... Seriously why are they still in jail?  Why do we have to pay their way through life?  If justice was truly served then why do all these murderers get to live?  Why do they deserve something that they decided to play God and take from someone else?  Want to see our country strive and flourish?  Start showing some true justice in the judicial system.  Start emptying out death row... I know the Bible says  "Thou Shalt Not Kill".  But an eye for an eye is all I'm saying... If you take a life then you don't deserve your own.  You should also have to be a donor.  This way your body can be used to save someone else's life.  That would be the least that a murder could do.  Regardless it will NEVER bring back someone's child or loved one.  There are plenty of options if you fell the need to hurt anyone.  There was a 1 and 1/2 year old child who died because the mom's boyfriend raped the little girl....SERIOUSLY!!!!!  What is wrong with people?  I don't get it... How can anyone get off on doing anything to a child... Sexual things... REALLY.... I mean people like that should be put in rooms with murderers and all just go ahead and be put to death... This is just sick to say the least... But not only did this jerk violate this baby but now she's dead.... I don't know what else to say to try to get people to stand up against child murder or murder in general...Come on people why don't we stand together as a nation and be advocates against crime.... There are so many faces that haven't had any justice... I wish I had enough room and space to put each precious child on here... But, the truth is there are so many.... Children of all ages... May you all rest in the arms of God.

I love my family so much.  Yes, at times they drive me absolutely crazy..... But no matter what we face, or what we go through.  We do it together.  We lean on each other for strength and to be a rock for the other.  If there's a mountain that we have to climb you can bet we are going to climb it together.  I know there's a calling for my family.  Just like I know the devil is trying to fight us every step of the way.  But, all I got to say is Satan get out of our way.   I am tired of you knocking my family down and attempting to hold us back.. These chains are no longer gonna hold us we no longer will be bound.  You might have your little tricks with my family's health but you're a liar and I rebuke you.  WE ARE HEALED!

Sister

My husband's wonderful sister has Multiple Sclerosis  otherwise known as MS.  She has medical bills like some of us would never even imagine.  But, she's a strong woman.  She's the sweetest person and very kind hearted.  She has a wonderful family.  I just would like to show her some support cause she's just so very special and she means the world to us.

Troops

Everyday we have young men and women fighting for our country.  Sacrificing their lives for us.  This has went on many many times through many many wars.  They are on the front lines, flying over battle fields.  Tending to the wounded.  Preparing bodies to be sent home to their families.  They deserve our support.  It doesn't matter if you never met a troop.  Whether it be a current solider or a veteran.  We should hold a moment of silence everyday for all those who have fought and died.  We should say a prayer for all those who are still alive that they come home to their loved ones safe.

Angels

I have always believed that we have Angels watching over us.  When  we lose a loved one I believe they become another guardian angel.  Watching over us keeping us safe.  Helping us through whatever trials we have to face and if our time on earth is through then I believe they help us when it's our time to transition to our next home.

Love, Peace, Happiness

Those are three things we should be showing to each other.. Love of one another.  Peace within ourselves and the happiness that surrounds us.

Violence

Whether it be a child, woman, man, animal it doesn't matter.  There's no reason to be violent.  Nothing good comes from violence....  Don't support the hate....

Deaf or Blind

I have done American Sign Language for over 20 years.  I have made many friends along the way who couldn't hear nothing I said.  But, we always carried on some of the best conversations.  Just because someone can't hear you doesn't mean they don't have feelings.

Just because someone can't see to read, or look at the beauty around them with their eyes... You can rest assured they can see you for who you are.  People regardless if they can see or not are special.

My Cousin

I have a cousin who was born with a few holes in his heart.  He's faced many trying times and many surgeries.  But, he is strong.  He has a strong family who with him endures a lot.  He has many goals ahead of him and I look forward to seeing him meet and reach everyone.  For that I show my support.

Cerebral Palsy

One of my good friends has Cerebral Palsy.  Does that change who he is?  No, he's the sweetest person you would ever meet.  A heart of gold.  He has a job and supports his self.  He doesn't ask nothing of no one.  He's truly a remarkable person.  Just for knowing him and anyone like him I show my support.

My Friends

I got a few friends who have children, grandchildren with Autism, or Down Syndrome.  These babies have done nothing to anyone.  But, there are those who are ignorant and live in fear.  Neither one of these conditions is contagious.  These babies deserve all the love and support they can get.  With that.. I show my support.

My Aunt

I have an aunt who battles with Lupus everyday.  She suffers something crazy with pain in her joints.  Headaches all the time.  I just want to show her some support and even though she knows how much I love her.  I just want to send her much love.

Homosexuals

Oh goodness did I start a topic now..... Well everyone deserves the right to be loved and to be happy.  Who am I to judge anyone on who they can or can't fall in love with... I have family and friends who are homosexuals.  Here's my thing about it all... If you don't like it then you simply don't have to be a part of it.  I for one am NOT going to turn my back on anyone for who they are with.  I know not one person has any right to judge another.  I have to much going on in my life to sit and say whose living right and whose living wrong.  It's surely not my place to decide.  Nor is it anyone else's.

Battle of the Bulge

There are many of us everyday fighting the battle of the bulge myself included.  Have you ever once stopped to realize that the person you think is fat there may be a medical condition for the reason they are heavy?  When you call someone fat, whale, lard butt, etc.. Those words hurt.  That can cause someone to go into a deep depression.  Don't be a cause help be a cure... Ask questions.  Maybe that person is depressed over the loss of a loved one.  Maybe their thyroid doesn't work properly.  Talk about the problem and together figure out a solution.  Don't ever kick someone just because their down.  Our country is getting bigger and bigger.  The solution is NOT to bully anyone.  Overweight people are most likely just wanting a little help and support.

My Girls

I got two children with Type 2 diabetes.  One of them has asthma on top of the diabetes..  I have a third child that has low glucose.  My fourth child she's supportive of her sisters.  Our family has went through a lot and we have a long rough road ahead of us.  But, we can do this.  Diabetes affects so much of a persons life.  Eye sight, arms, legs, over all not feeling well..

My Hubby

My hubby is the best man any woman could ever ask for.  Hard worker, supportive.  Then in Oct 2011 we got a blow we weren't expecting.. He was diagnosed with COPD and Asthma and a spot on his right lung.  It was an ok we can do this.  Then as time has gone by the doctors keep finding something else..He has 4 bulging discs that are pressing on his nerve in his back along with arthritis on his spine.  Then the doctors said he has a mass in his right kidney and they are suspecting it is renal cell cancer.. But, we will get through this all together.  We are a strong family and we can overcome anything.  United we stand.

My Granny

My grandmother is a wonderful terrific woman.  She has survived so much.  Breast cancer, heart disease, west nile just to name a few things.. She will be 91 this year.. She may have her moments but she's still going strong...She would definitely be my hero.  She has taught me so much and how to be the mother, wife and support I am today.