Another Beautiful Day

Well got to sleep in some today.... felt great getting up... then having to rush around today to get ready for a birthday party... Once I slowed down I could feel the pain in my hip uggh...It's so aggravating being in pain all the time.  My body jumps in my sleep.. It literally wakes me up..Scares the crap out of my hubby.. He said it really scares him when I do that.  I can be awake and laying next to him or just trying to relax and my body will jump.  I can't say it jerks cause I literally come about 6 inches off the bed.  It scares me to but I try not to say nothing about it.  I'm scared to say something to the doctors... I got enough going on already... and once you say something to the doctors they start finding a bunch of things wrong.... They can look all they want though.. cause the more they find the more God is going to step in a show them they are wrong....

Don't get me wrong I'm in no way perfect... But, I am a good person.. Yeah sure I was a brat growing up but who wasn't?  I feel that as you get older you get wiser. The older I get the more I see how blessed I am and how truly thankful I am for all God has done for me and given me.


Everyday I am so thankful just for being able to open my eyes and wake up.  Today it was so beautiful outside the sun shining, the birds singing, breeze gently blowing, a glider plane flying over head so close you could see the wheels on it,  Laughing and joking with my family and neighbors.  Just an all out great day!

Taking Time...

So, I did a  little yard work today (not to much because I hurt).  Then our son, his girlfriend and the grand babies came over.  As did one of our nephews came over.... We had so much fun.  You know when you know what you're going to hear when you go to the doctor.. Then actually hearing that result does put you in shock no matter how well you prepare yourself..... So with some family coming over especially grand babies... It takes ALL your mind off of everything... and for that moment in time you are so wrapped up and focused on the precious children in your life... and spoiling your grandchildren so much that you forget all about any and all problems... Or at least I do.... I know my children got me through some pretty hard times in my life and they don't even know it... With our family sticking together and remaining strong and be a rock for each other... it's great... and things aren't as bad as they could be... We could be depressed and just give up on everything.. But,  with the strength we draw from each other it just makes us a stronger family..... People don't realize how important family is...

Gotta Stay Strong

So we found out today that my hubby's blood work and urinalysis came back showing that his kidney's are working great and that the cancer hasn't spread into his blood stream it's still confined to his kidney.  We are still waiting for a date for his biopsy on his kidney.  Gotta keep the faith that all's going to be fine.  I refuse to believe anything different.

I went today to the Rhuematologist and they say that I have rheumatoid arthritis (Polyarthralgia), Positive ANA (antinuclear antibody), Myalgia, Trochanteric bursitis of my right hip, and chronic back pain.  I have to have more tests done because this doctor also thinks I may have Lupus :\

But, you know no matter what the doctor report says I know a God who is bigger than any test and any doctor report.  I believe in miracles and I believe that we are going to get a few healing miracles in our bodies.


To anyone reading this no matter what any report says just keep your eyes glued on the bigger picture and on God and he will lead you and see you through any trial, tribulation or anything else that may come your way.

When the devil comes knocking just stand flat on your feet.  Throw your head in the air.. Tell that lying slew foot that your foots on the Rock and your minds made up.

Stress...Uggh..

So stressed right now...  Having nightmares...Bills piling up.... The doctor saying that I'm disabled....I just wish the social security office would hurry up with my husbands appeal.... I just don't get what in the world.. Why we are being punished for being good people.  We haven't murdered no one.  We help anyone we can.. But, all it feels like is that we keep getting kicked down and that's not bad enough.. But, while we are down the world just keeps kicking us down further.....All we can do is pray.. Hold on to faith that God is going to see us through it all....I for one am being tired and fed up with life kicking my family down... I am going to kick back.. Let life know what it feels like... The devil can come against us all he wants... But, I know God will go into battle for us.  He will win our every fight... We will come out stronger and better than what we are.