Today is a bitter sweet day. Almost 12 years ago I lost my own mother. We only had 7 months to bond like a mother and daughter should be. I knew her my whole life but always felt like she didn't like me. She didn't raise me and even though I know now as I'm grown that she went through a lot in her life and somethings she didn't really know how to show.. Love was one. By time she figured out how to show love was in June of 2000. We found out in July of 2000 that she had stage 4 pancreatic cancer. She died Nov 3, 2000. Every Mother's Day, Holiday and her birthday. I take the time to acknowledge the time we had together that we got along and was actually a mother and daughter. I can't change the past but I can make sure that I try my best to be the best mom that I can be to my own children, and the best Memaw to my grand babies. That's the bitter part of my day today...
The sweet part is getting to spend the day with my children and my hubby. I may not have all of my children here or my grand babies here today but I did get to spend a pre-mother's day with them all a couple days ago.
Being a mom, memaw and a wife are the best things in life. I think I make a good mother in law also. I speak my mind and even though some don't really like it. They know that I wouldn't say things if I didn't want what's best for them and if I didn't love them. I don't see my step children as step.. I've heard the term "bonus" child(ren). I like that term better than step.. I see all of them as mine.. regardless if I gave birth to them or not. I think that if someone loves someone so much that they accept their child(ren) as their own that the other parents should feel blessed that someone else loves their child(ren) or grand child(ren) just as much as they do. I'm so blessed to have such great children.. beautiful grand babies and a wonderful husband. They get me through some of the stressful times in life. Even though they don't always know it. I can be having one of the worst days and the smiles on my children's faces and on my hubby's makes the whole world disappear. I think that's the most important thing in life is loving your family and leaning on them and them leaning on you when you or they need each other.
I got beautiful bouquet of flowers.. a little stuffed panda bear (he's just tooooo cute), a home made card.. a butterfly for my outside garden, a picture of a garden that our youngest child made me... I get all my meals prepared for me by the kids...
I'm so proud that they are cooking more and showing me that when they step out in the world to be on their own when time comes that they are going to be OK. That's one of my biggest fears is that I haven't prepared them enough for the "real world". But, I can only do the best I can and protect them the best I can and when time comes that I have done all I could do teaching them.
I love spoiling my grand babies. Seeing them makes things even better. Their mother is such a great mom. I watch her and I am so proud of her. Seeing my 4 year old grand daughter adding numbers is so exciting to me.. and seeing them sing with their mom is just to cute. The look on their dads face is just priceless when they were singing the bumble bee song.. hahaha... Especially the part about eating the bumblebee. I love watching them interact as a family. It does my heart good and lifts my spirits. That they have such an adorable family. They gave me two of the most beautiful grand babies in the world so far.. I know I brag on my kids, grand kids and hubby a lot but I am just so proud and so blessed to have them.
Just for the record when I say my or our kids I'm even including the mother of my grand babies. We look at her like she's one of ours.. Not just because she's the mother of our grand babies but because she's been in our family for so long she's just one of us... Don't get me wrong we had some bumps along the way and everything wasn't always roses... or maybe it was roses... just we went through the thorns first before we seen the rose.. I am so proud of the mother she has become...Proud to have her in our life... She's so encouraging.. So glad that we all had that second chance to really get to know each other.
Each Mother's Day gets a little more special. Love my life and all those in it.. Life may not always be easy but when you have family around you that's loves you and you love them it makes life a little more bearable. We all have our ups and downs.. But, when you got love and a great family.. It makes it all the better..
I know for myself my family has gotten me through the hardest times in my life.. I hope for them I have done the same.
Growing a garden is kinda like raising a family... You have to show love and care and keep the weeds out for it to be productive. If you let your kids run wild and let them be disrespectful then they will run wild in their adult lives and get into all kinds of trouble with the law and other things.. If you teach them respect and discipline (NO, I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT BEATING YOUR KIDS), honor, trust, honesty and hard work they will be productive members of society.
I believe that you have to let kids be themselves while teaching them self control. I don't pick my kids clothes out.. But, I do teach them self respect on their attire. If something's to revealing I tell them and I tell them how others would perceive them if they dressed revealing everything... Thankfully I don't have to tell them often. I can say ummm and they know exactly what I'm talking about without me really saying anything. I am proud of the person our son has become and is becoming. Our daughters are becoming great women and will be great women. I'm in no hurry to be a memaw again anytime soon.. I'm just happy with the grand babies I have...
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOMMIES... .
God Bless
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